It's like being engulfed by your own life. Slowly consumed by the time spent on tutorials, sometimes there is just no extra time for an "others" kind of activity anymore. An outing has to scheduled to be held on a school celebration day o.o imagine how "much" time we have to spare....

Today's an exception because after odac I'm in the nua state I am in now. My brain is kind of dead, thanks to mugger club executives pushing me to my limits..

I feel like I'm living in a semi-detached state, from my soul -.- I'm alive when there's no work, when friends come together and talk rubbish. For the moment I enjoy myself and laugh to my hearts content. As kokswee mentions ever so frequently, "life is tough", the moment leisure ends, our academic life catches up with us and hounds us till we complete our tutorials and wind up exhausted in bed. At times where the schedule is tight, sleep appears as a waste of time. For the 6hours that we sleep, we could have churned out more work, read more materials etc etc. Maybe with the extra 6hours, I can even afford to use the computer like now; rather than check my mails via handphone in the toilet while shitting T.T

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Dragon boating today was funn :)) played the number game which stupid things end up happening. It's hilarious when out of a sudden, a fooled person shouts out a number that wasn't meant to be shouted. And it adds to the comic effect when blur people like me just CAN'T keep track and wind up having water poured on me like 5 times?? The frustrating times were when coordination sucked to the max, and when the water from jun hao's stroke splashed onto my face. It's like a bucket of water "WHOOSH" right smack into your head...

there are a few things that i've learnt over this period:
1) more topics such as vectors, economic indicators, halogenoalkanes and arenes and halogenoarenes, as well as GP ( >.< ufo grade looming ahead.... :( )

2) having more people to plan things tgt can be both dynamic and inefficient.

3) A smile on my face can make a big difference.

There was this day that my younger sis said to me "why are you always laughing when i see you". That's excluding the animated version of me that she acted out...I figured, those moments are probably those that I've got no worries on my mind, no anger (like duh). But it makes sense to say that my smile, and having a smile given to you; can make a person's day.

I wonder if people make my day; or is it the other way round that I make their day a better one. OR is it a dynamic one? I hope I've done my part for you :]

Came across this picture, and coincidentally, it was taken on Gunung Tahan xD I hope it applies for everyone because home is really where the heart lies. Sometimes it may not be obvious, I can't decide for you because it is Your Family :] maybe think deeper, remember the small notes your mum and you exchanged? remember the outings your family had? To you, those may be routines, or just dinners but to me as an outsider, those are small but heartwarming activites to have :)

something that is not expressed doesn't necessarily mean it isn't there.. <3

All I want is you :) really cute song!
All I want is you, will you be my bride

Take me by the hand and stand by my side

All I want is you, will you stay with me?

Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

I love pictures! Somehow I can spend like hours going through pictures of people, activites, snapshots, funny scenes :) It doesn't really matter if I had seen them before, nice to relive the moments I guess. Yue huan has nice potential display pictures/wallpapers on her blogs, it makes me feel a bit sad to see those sad stuff, but some are quite nice to have, here's the link: http://www.lovetrains.blogspot.com/ I've got the urge to compile the websites that have nice pictures haha I don't really like pictures with people hurting themselves or those that do not inspire at all  xD ah goodness, maybe i should compile them.. ((:

When I am free, I do bizarre things. I read blogs of people I hardly talk to, like yue huan :) Heard from Anthea that samantha's blog is inspirational and nice to read so I visit it now and then too haha it is indeed, not bad. I doubt I can ever have such a profound command of english. And I'm having these "free" time because I take time off to slack, makes me feel so guilty. The worst thing is!!!! when I sit down I do for less than half an hour I'll feel so damn restless. Time flies damn fast these days D: STOPPPP!! (yea I know, no use la)

Next week will be a busy one! But I think I should do some recap of the last week of 2009 eh? Though it's kind of late! Hahaha

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24th Dec
Christmas celebration wasn't as fun as usual :) Apparently something went wrong with the food at the restaurant many of my relatives ate in, like 6 of them came down with food poisoning and stomach upset. In the end those who could make it came, we played a bit of games, with prizes sponsored by my aunt :D games includes charades and those teoyiwei came up with (: speaking of charades, its like played since don't know when for all occasions xD it'll usually be guys versus girls and the girls always lose T.T hahah it MUST BE because we have the kids on our side xD like carrie and katie plus teoyixin whereas the guys side all of them are grown ups! Yuup so after games we watched movie on channel 5 and headed home slightly after midnight. Ohhh! haha we got some presents :)) yuupp thanks to our aunts for sponsoring our presents although we're like "getting old"!

25th Dec
Saw Elaine and some 4B people at ion orchard. Elaine was working! And the others, we bumped into them while having dinner.

26th,27th
OHH Met up with Marven Weijie TJ on the 27th :)) It's been so damn long, talked for some time and went home :S oh well haha we'll see each other again surelyyyy.My sis friends came over and I went over for a while for both.

29th Dec
that was the ctc thingy and after that I went metro sale at expo :D yes I mentioned retail therapy rocks. hahaha it still does! Maybe when school reopens popular will become my shopping place xD

31st Dec
Watched avatarrrrr :D I think my next fav colour shall be sky blue haha! When I was young I asked my dad what was his favourite colour and he said sky blue. Wonder if he still likes it now..OH! Before that we were supposed to go wild wild wet! with the squad (OH LOL lame joke: we're a squad. we are the people who squat T.T). Sadly I had my damn period that came and we ended up at cindy's house before I left to watch movie! Haha it was such an impromptu thing, though such sudden meet ups are getting increasingly common with eggs. Yuupp haha cindy's house is like a chalet, while I was walking through I felt like staying there too. A pool right downstairs..zzz..it reminds me how unfit I will be as compared to the two of them xD

After that was countdown at my aunt's!!! LOL charades showdown, battle of the sexes, omgggg and we lost againnnn!!! ok nevermind, so we countdown, took pictures and yayyy bye 2009! here comes 2010 xD HELLO, I'm not really happy to meet you but hello anyway. We were looking at the video she took during her wedding :) it was like in 2006 and we all look so different! Her wedding was  on 03032006, it was a pity cause my grandpa wasn't around anymore, but haha wow, I want a video for my wedding too!

1st Jan
THE FIRST DAY OF THE YEAR was spent with the babes at simin's house. MUGGINGGGGGG hahah. I think cindy kinda forgot her maths..I was doing DE with simin. I was happy at the end of the day cause I loved the smile that cindy kept giving me when she boarded her train. LOL omg so pervert. but her smile was such a happy one (to me) and so I got infected. And that's also cause we got to tease simin on the way to the mrt.
hmm so they all make me happy :))
And so did my sisters, cause when I was so angry bout the toothpaste they didn't gloat or anything. Quite nice and patient of them.

2nd Jan
I was supposed to go down to school for orientation dry run!! T.T But I caught I fever like near midnight, felt damn hot and uncomfortable. So took some panadol and slept instead of going for the dry run.. Sorryyy, lucky jing qi and simin kept me in the loop for a bit, what was going on..haha I'll see both of them on monday which is tomorrow xD

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3rd Jan (today)
Grandma's 85th birthday :) didn't end on a super blissful note though, due to some hiccups. I hope she lives healthily for the rest of the years to come and I wish she could be with us foreverrr. There was one day she asked my aunt if my ah gong was still around haha..she said it feels as if he is still around..
I thought about it, and I do agree with her..I sit at the place where I'm using the computer, it used to be where he sat reading his papers. At dinner teoyixin now takes his seat, and I retain mine, beside him. Haha, I do know that he isn't around anymore. But sometimes, you can't help but remember him. It's been 5 years..long eh? But the memory's still fresh. Everytime before I go overseas I'll look at his photo hanging on the wall, I'll tell him "i'll be back please keep me safe.". And everytime I return from the trip, I look at his face smiling down and I tell him I'm back...just like how when I come home I have to call my grandma..

I'm not being a nutcase, that's just how I've been feeling :] and it never goes away. I'm still scared of ghosts though..even if the adults tell me "even if its ghost, it'll be gong gong or jing xiong shu shu"... :) I'm so humji.

Tomorrow school will reopen, not for me yet, but i'll be so busy anyway. All the best for school people :)) If you're bored you may msg me (ya and i know you'll tell me, why would i be so bo liao -.-)

haha stay happy~ I've done a good job, such a long post, so give me a pat on my shoulder now :D goodbye~

I'm losing the interest to blog xD

Leftovers from homework:
Econs: 2 part B essays, half of the case study skills and one market failure essay.
Hallelujah xD I THINK SOMEONE WILL KILL ME when she sees me in tutorial..*drowns* She'll kill me with daggers shooting out from her eyes instead of scolding. And that makes it a torture.

GP: The essay planning part
Maths: Questions I still can't figure out. Need help from the clever people.

Moodle's down and so chem's out.

I WILL SAVE MYSELF D: hopefully >.<
should talk to kang/anthea to get some of their chionging mentality.
ARGH BLAST IT

If you cut me I suppose I would bleed the colors
Of the evening stars.
You can go anywhere you wish cause I'll be there, wherever you are